We will come back to this topic more extensively as this story progresses. But it’s important to have some background knowledge on this process. You watch someone you love die in front of you a little more every day. You see this person transform right before your eyes into someone completely different. In minutes everything about their demeanor, expressions, and language change entirely. You never know when they’re going to snap or how to get them out of it. You’re living with a true Jekyll and Hyde – one minute loving, the next destruction. I’m not sure if this monster lived inside him this entire time and I was too naïve to see it, or if something really did slowly melt away all the good parts of his being.

Psychosis is a mental condition where someone completely loses touch with reality. Their delusions become so convincing; it makes the one witnessing this change question their own reality. The one in psychosis will think completely irrational thoughts like believing people are out for them, following them, or to the extent I experienced, hiding in their house. Over a year these phantom people became a part of my daily life. They were in the walls, in the ceiling, in the car, outside. They followed us everywhere we went and caused havoc trying to find them. It became constant question of whether to agree or disagree, but no matter if I said I believed it or not I was always the one to blame for causing them to appear.